Friday, September 28, 2007
My world..dont miss it.....
This is all about my world, my people and my country...
I miss u all.....
I felt something would be better expressed in pictures rather than in words.....
Saturday, September 8, 2007
A Failure story
Its been a long time since i have updated my blog. In this mean time many things have happened in my life. Life for me has taken a complete U-turn. Its told that if you can express what you feel than half of your burden is gone. I have chosen this platform to express my feelings.
It has been a custom to write success stories and tell them to the whole world and show people how to become successful. But for a change I'd be writing a failure story. My failure story.
In one of my previous blogs I have written about an exam which I said would turn and tune up my career. Before writing the exam I thought of only on the brighter side. but thers always an other side of the coin which may not be as brighter as you want. Being posstive is a good thing but being over positive and not thinking about failure is not at all a good thing.
The thought of failure may intially lead to fear but that fear is essential to get success. I never had that fear of failure as I always thought thinking possitive will get you success. But it didnot happen. Now its proved that not only thinking positive but also you need to put extra efforts to get success.
Now let me analyze myself where did i go wrong......I spent daily around 6-8 hours of studying, i revised the whole concepts twice, infact I never felt so comfortable before taking an exam in my entire life, I kept away from cricket which i loved most, i was away from chatting and orkutting....away from friends, but still it wasn't enough. It needed that extra bit of fear which i dint had. Now I feel if I had thought of failure I might have studied more vigorously and succeded eventually.
What next.......Im at a critical point from where i dont know what i should really be doing. I have a thesis to finish in a month and a half, the thesis which i hadn't even started yet. at the same time I have to retake this exam which would be some time in december and that would be my last chance of taking it. I have to be literally out of this world concentrating on only 2 things...thesis and FPGEE.
Now, i feel that one failure could change the life style of a person. I have started changing myself. I'm keeping myself away from my friends, deleted my orkut account which everybody believes is the main culprit of my failure. These changes may bring me success, joy and happiness. But is that what I'm expecting. I dont know. Im in an ambiguous position where im unable to decide whats happiness is all about.
I was happy being with friends, talking to them, spending time with them. But is that not the happiness. Does happiness lies only in getting a good job and getting good money. May be im thinking like a kid. But it is a proven fact that kids are the most happiest people in this world.
Finally, this failure has taught me a new lesson, you need to have a fear of success, you shouldn't be over possitive, you should be avoiding people, you should always say that you are not confident, you should always be frustrated with your life then, yes, then you will get your success which will make you happy.
It has been a custom to write success stories and tell them to the whole world and show people how to become successful. But for a change I'd be writing a failure story. My failure story.
In one of my previous blogs I have written about an exam which I said would turn and tune up my career. Before writing the exam I thought of only on the brighter side. but thers always an other side of the coin which may not be as brighter as you want. Being posstive is a good thing but being over positive and not thinking about failure is not at all a good thing.
The thought of failure may intially lead to fear but that fear is essential to get success. I never had that fear of failure as I always thought thinking possitive will get you success. But it didnot happen. Now its proved that not only thinking positive but also you need to put extra efforts to get success.
Now let me analyze myself where did i go wrong......I spent daily around 6-8 hours of studying, i revised the whole concepts twice, infact I never felt so comfortable before taking an exam in my entire life, I kept away from cricket which i loved most, i was away from chatting and orkutting....away from friends, but still it wasn't enough. It needed that extra bit of fear which i dint had. Now I feel if I had thought of failure I might have studied more vigorously and succeded eventually.
What next.......Im at a critical point from where i dont know what i should really be doing. I have a thesis to finish in a month and a half, the thesis which i hadn't even started yet. at the same time I have to retake this exam which would be some time in december and that would be my last chance of taking it. I have to be literally out of this world concentrating on only 2 things...thesis and FPGEE.
Now, i feel that one failure could change the life style of a person. I have started changing myself. I'm keeping myself away from my friends, deleted my orkut account which everybody believes is the main culprit of my failure. These changes may bring me success, joy and happiness. But is that what I'm expecting. I dont know. Im in an ambiguous position where im unable to decide whats happiness is all about.
I was happy being with friends, talking to them, spending time with them. But is that not the happiness. Does happiness lies only in getting a good job and getting good money. May be im thinking like a kid. But it is a proven fact that kids are the most happiest people in this world.
Finally, this failure has taught me a new lesson, you need to have a fear of success, you shouldn't be over possitive, you should be avoiding people, you should always say that you are not confident, you should always be frustrated with your life then, yes, then you will get your success which will make you happy.
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